On a Binge

Another shot in front of me
 A cigarette forgotten in my hand
  Started drinking way too early
   Sometime this afternoon
    After I left you
     It's 11 o'clock at night now
      My head is spinning
       Eyes unfocused
        Tongue numb
         Mouth dry
Too much tequila or was it Jager this time
 I can't seem to remember what it was
  My mind is still back at your house
   Embroiled in bitter conflicts
    Tears on a feather pillow
     Words hanging in thickened air
      Pain worn like a leather glove
       Love tearing apart
        Heart is breaking
         Goodbyes wrenched out
Man beside me buys me another strong drink
 He's done that a lot tonight I have noticed
  Thinks he'll get lucky with me after hours
   He'd better rethink that course of action
    His smile is fake, his laughter too loud
     He could use a good scrubbing
      Buys another round of drinks
       He's making his sleazy plans
        Loser setting up for failure
         Really no surprise
Music playing in the background around me
 Old lovesongs we both used to dearly love
  Tears come as I light another cigarette
   I'll probably forget to smoke this one
    It won't be the first time tonight
     Memory is fading away
      I finally feel no pain in my heart
       There is only a numbness
        Your face in my mind
         Can't recall way
It's last call for alcohol so I order one more shot
 My sister arrives to take me back home
  Not understanding my depression over you
   Cursing your name as she leads me to the car
    I don't understand her venom for you
     She knows how much I love you
      Claims not to want me hurt again
       I retreat to my lonely bedroom
        Collapse on the hard bed
         Close my burning eyes

Dream of you all night.